Phantom Mind

3AM in the morning. Yes, that's redundant. 3AM in the morning always needs that extra emphasis. Can't sleep.

Phantom Mind: That strange sensation... long after you've lost your mind, where you could swear you still feel it slipping away. Utterly preposterous of course.

Today I hate : People that accelerate in the slow lane to cut you off when you're trying to merge onto the freeway. Grr.

Last night's movie: Stranger than Fiction, which I enjoyed far more than I was expecting to.
Tonight's movie: The Wild Parrots of Telegraph Hill, which was rather endearing for a random documentary about a nutty San Fransiscian and a flock of quirky wild birds he hangs out with.
Tomorrow's movie: Enron: The Smartest Guys in the Room.

wah wah wah

Color me CRANKY. Been under the weather for days. What is this, the asian bird flu? Did I eat something toxic? I dunno. I don't care. Just freaking fed up with it. Thought I was getting over it yesterday, but nnOOOOooo. *sigh*

Maybe someone snuck some maltodextrin into my "Non-Dairy" smoothie. GRRRR.

I'm allergic to WHEY PROTEIN.... which comes from milk and exists in butter, cheese, cream, milk, ice cream, yogurt, most protein bars, many sports drinks and the AIR in Earth's northern hemisphere apparently.

When people try pass things off as "non-dairy" when they are, in fact, "less dairy" items really... well, it really CHEESES ME OFF. I''ve actually seen a "Non-dairy Cheesecake - Made with Soy! okay... Great! I'll have a piece. no... wait better be sure... So, no cheese, no milk, no butter in this at all? What? They just use 75% as much cheese and make up the difference with soy? Wow, I guess I'll just be Non-dead afterwards. You know, only 75% dead... with the remaining 25% of me hating you for being a big fat LIAR. *A*A*A*R*G*G*G*H*H*

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I managed to get my mind off of my "internal arrangement" for a while... and watched "Man of the Year" (Robin Williams pretends to be a "Daily Show with Jon Stewart"-type and runs for president). Not bad and it had it's moments. Something was off about it though... probably me.

I shouldn't blog, email, forum, chat, play... I'm just way too snippy and angry right now. Not like anyone else notices much, I'm probably more rude when I'm happy and not guarding what I say as closely. *grumble*

Wandering Fools

So, okay. I didn't get to the pool for a swim. That's hardly new, I've used my pool maybe once in all the 9 or so years I've lived here? (9, already?) I did get out for a nice evening's stroll though. Nice now that it's not pitch dark out upon getting home.

I'm I only live four or five blocks away from the old house I left 10 years ago. It's changed a lot more than I have in 10 years. At least on the outside. I'll have to drag a camera along next time and post before'n'after pics. :)

I did snap a pic with my cell phone, not of the house, but of the greenery beside the footbridge to the old neighborhood. Someone went a little nuts with the "Eastery" stuff...

Lights and Focus

I'm such a scatterbrain. What was I working on?

Oh yeah, these guys:


Little will o wisps.

Some of my cavern areas in SecondLife are *DARK* and these are helpful for explorers/visitors.

Prettier than I expected too.

And so full of potential and curious future uses.
(that's me on the left, btw)

Random thought for the day: "Correlation is not proof of causation"

It really bothers me when people neglect to consider that rather simple concept. In fact, some people seem to go to great convoluted lengths of reasoning and (il)logic to dance around it complete without touching it.

"Terrorists attacked America... because we don't put to death the 'abominations' that live among us, as the old testament would have us do!"

Sigh. Whatever.

"It's stupid people that believe moronic crap like that, that re-elect a morally bankrupt administration to 'lead' this country straight into debt, disgrace and disenfranchisement."

It's all their fault!

If they don't need to prove causality... then neither do I. Right?

Okay, okay. Yes, I do. I wouldn't be able to live with myself otherwise.

Debt and Taxes

So.... I was just taking the scenic route home after having my taxes done... the back route, down quiet streets, because my head was (is) still reeling after finding out I owe a few multiples of what I expected. A nice friendly officer saw I was a little distracted and very politely pulled me over to tell me so. Ooops.

Money. It's only money.
A little more.. a little less... meh, whatever.
What I really hate... is paperwork.

Honest and True?

Some inane wordplaythought for today.

"Data" and "Facts" exist aplenty. Books can have facts... but that
doesn't make them knowledgable or intelligent.

"Information" and "Intelligence" are a bit more elusive and come
from studying how data and facts relate to each other.

"Knowledge", and "Truth" comes from seeing how information
and intelligence pertains to one's self and the world around us.
The closer to reality one's knowledge is, the more "True" it becomes.

"Truths" that pertain to things which cannot be seen, touched
measured, tested, interpreted etc... is nothing more than "Hope".
(at least I hope that's right)

"Wisdom" is the result when one's truths become themselves "true"
or aligned with reality in ways that are relevant and non-contradictory.

Too many people get wrapped up in calling flat dogma as "Truth"
and ignore the process of becoming wise. To reject intelligence,
(the steady gathering of data and information from reality) and
embrace someone else's "Hopes" despite lack of, or contradictory
evidence... is not "Wise". What it is, is "Foolish".

This flat dogma is my truth. Don't be a fool, go find your own.